A&E

Mon:My very first day in TTSH(as a student nurse).can you believe it? when i'm still getting use to the enviroment i was sent to resus room,but sadly to say no resusicitation take place.

Tue: was send to observation room. all i did there was vital sign,ECG,Fleet and attending to patient ADL.Was very grummy today as my leg is so painful.

Wed:been to the minor OT and screening station.my first case in OT was a patient on warfarin with a cut on the forehead.he was bleeding non stop and in that few mins while waiting for the doc to come i changed 4 packet of gauze for him as it's soaking wet.manage to see I&D and T&S in the OT.after which i went over to the screening.OMG! i met a cute guy there.

Thur: did triage. i think this particular male staff is a very fast worker but somehow there was a joke saying that which ever place he go will be full of cases as wed he was in resus and there were many standby case and some didn't make it through.

Fri: stay in consultation area. i like 2 doc in particular man.they are so nice.they teach me new thing and allow me to try it out.

on a whole i like A&E alot even though on the first and second day i complaint alot mayb because of my leg.will consider working in A&E man. manage to do IM injection there...

guess my blog have been isolated long enough.finally is back to normal.. haha..i'm back to blog.went to langkawi for holidays.guess we went at the wrong time as most of the food stall is closed.but i really did enjoy my holidays.i like their beach and the waterfall.even though it's not the best but to me it is.i would like to thanks my aunt for this bday present.it's really relaxing.just nice before i get into the stress up working enviroment.

didnt have the time to update my blog.i must say, attachment in ward 53 was great and fun.firstly i met all the nice staff and they are willing to teach,so i really learnt alot from them,secondly is the student nurses that made my day, though we were all too busy to have break tog.

one out of the four weeks holiday is over.have been going out every single day.thanks to the people that wished me on my birthday be it msn,sms,friendster or in person.special thanks to my family for making my birthday a wonderful one,xinyi for her present(i will think of you when i use it which means i will think of you at least once a day,haha),and also elaine shuhui and kavitha for finding the time to have dinner with me.

i am really sway man,air con spoil,hp spoil so dun bother to contact me by hp i won't receive anything.

=)

had been a really long time since i update my blog.my last entry was during exam.the one week break after exam wasn't productive at all.All i did was watch tv.well for this week i'm out on attachment already for my geron posting.how time really passed. still rmb how i dread to go on attachment before it start but now one week is over.this posting was good.i met all the very nice staff and sister.

we all start taking case.even though in the past i took case but it wasn't complete the staff would help in some stuff but this time it's really ur patient ur case ur respondsibilty.that day because of the discharge and admission of this particular bed and the doc coming to see this new admitted patient, i went late for my break. so when the doc have finally came up with the plan for the patient he came over and update me.i hold on to the case note looking through wad had been updated and as the doc was trying to explain to me,he couldn't point to the word he wanted to tell because i was shaking so badly d/t hypo so he hold on to the case note for me and ask me to go for my break and say that he would update me latta.so sweet of him.As for thur and fri went for home nursing.

home nursing is fun.go home visiting and doing clinical skill.Fri i went to Commando camp in changi because my staff nurse were to help up in the health screening there.for the first time i dun mind working overtime.haha..the guys there are nice.we do joke around.all of them are so healthy lah dunno what the health screening is for.i can even predict their result w/o doing the test.of course there are plenty of good looking and macho guys there.so glad that i have the chance to go there not everyone can go in.=)

stress-ed.. piss off!!!

have not been updating my blog due to exam.though i'm not as hardworking as other or mugging like crazy but for the first time in my school life i felt the fear for exam. for the first time i did past year paper but i didn't know how to ans my SAQ for the first paper. (demoralise-d). i know i didn't do well for all the paper so far and i'm only left with 1 more to go.just hope that i will be able to pass it.

today on my way home the headline on the chinese newspaper caught my attention.it goes like this "woman molested a man" but wad caught my attention more was the SHOCKING sub-heading tt is "man in his 50s was molested by lady in her 20s who is pretty,sexy and in mini-skirt".for the first time i told my mum let's go buy the paper. haha...what is this world becoming man.

i dunno why but you are getting on my nerve.in the PAST the time tog were filled with fun,joy and laughter but now it's replace with DISAPPOINTMENT,DISGUSTED & IRRITATED.i think you change alot.if it wasn't for her i would have ask you to GET OUT OF MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!! what are you trying to do? trying to show me how capable u are? how great you are? how wonderful you are? let me tell you, you are showing how CHILDISH you are and how IMMATURE you can be. PLEASE KNOW YOUR LIMIT.!!! move forward and not backward. do you understand wad i'm trying to say? Don't make me say it right into your face please.i still treasure the so-called friendship that we have now.i will not hesitate to end this friendship if necessary.

realise i'm getting on great.no more of looking back=),but the only thing that i'm still holding on is my class 0531.gonna miss them after this thur.the last day of seeing/meeting each other for some of them.ur have been a great and wonderful classmate.really had a enjoyable and fun time with you guys around.

let me update in detail on what happen on fri.My plan that day was go out have lunch with my aunt,mum and sis then acc her to doc before going to sch.But while having lunch in suki sushi receive msg that i don't need to go back sch as andy cancel it.Kinda sad as that was suspose to be the last day and tog with all my DEARS we plan to take pics.As it's cancel my family was so happy and we start to plan the programme for the evening but turn out the plan was cancel as after the jab from doc my mum couldn't walk.So basically the plan after plan after plan were all cancel.haha.

ytd aunt call to ask if we wanna go over to stay.so me and my sis went over.met up for dinner at chop chop.the food was great.then today went to changi safra.Cycle from east coast to bedok jetty to changi.sound like i have cycle a long distance actually is all link so is kinda short.lolx.after that went swimming.now suffering from post outdoor activity sydrome and that is sunburn.lolx.had fun this few day.shall settle down to study tml liao.and also gonna go renew my PDL if not dun nidda drive on the coming practice.

the impossible turn out to be possible but of coz not the possible that i was expecting.but this was much much much more better than the one i expected.haha...glad that i finally let go of everything and looking forward.no longer bother by it.=)

how time really flies.it's the end of going to school life.my exam is approaching next week and yet i have not start studying.must really mug tonight.well this week weren't too bad.when i gt the msg informing me that i need not go sch ytd i was very upset and on addition i recevie the news from you.

i really dunno what am i thinking.waiting for the impossible to happen? when will it happen? even if miracle happen i don't think the impossible will become possible.or is it because i didn't open my heart to the possiblity?

my sis brought it for me..=)

It's funny when you find yourself looking from the outside.I'm standing here but all I want is to be over there.Why did I let myself believe that miracles could happen. Because now I have to pretend that I don't really care.


I thought you were my fairytale.A dream when I'm not sleeping.A wish upon a star that's coming true. But everybody else could tell that I confused my feelings with the truth.But now I know you're not a fairytale and dreams were meant for sleeping. And wishes on a star just don't come true.Because now even I can tell that I confused my feelings with the truth!But still I liked the view when there was me and you.

at last i have got time to update my blog.i'm in NYP comp lab updating.=)

after today i'm left with one more week in sch. i'm sure i gonna miss school.Nv in my life time i've got this feeling.mayb is because i know after this i will be out in society working already.how fast time past. still remember my life in primary school. the little girl that is being protect by mummy and daddy is now getting out to work soon. i believe the death rate in hospital is on the rise.=P

i totally agree with my mum.sometime trouble dun just come to you,it's you who go find it first.

it really hurts my heart when i see ur cry.i felt so helpless when there is nth i can help.i very much wanted to do something for you but i really dunno what i can do for you.but bear in mind that no matter what i will be there for you.so if you ever feels tired,i will be there.

really hope that my family are all in pink of health.my sis and mum have cartilage prob,and as a student nurse there is nth i can do to help.why??i really hope that there is something i can do for them and yet in SHS i know no one from physio.at least if i know them i can ask for some advice.


你太令我失望。i really dunno what you are think.


it's ok,i'm ok
我不用你陪.
请不要误会，
我只是有点累。

Finally i have gt the time to update my blog.let's start with last sun(22.07.07). went out to celebrate darling's birthday.glad that she enjoy it.first we went fish & co. after that went to TTSH to show her the way there,then we went k-box and after tt went for dinner.Had plenty of fun tt day.Thanks gals for making my day.=)











well sometimes in life thing don't goes well.things turn out the way u didn't expect it to be, the way u deal with it can change the ending.that is something i really learn this week.

mayb because the module i'm taking now is something that have gt to do with elderly and emergency department stuff, it alway remind me of my great grandma.it really have a great impact on me.

finally all ICA down,but is also meant that my sch is ending,my exam is coming,i'm graduating and stuff.somehow i dun wish that the sch end so soon.

完美是一个目标，但有谁能够做到？

As usual was late for 8am lecture this morning.Saw elaine sitting outside having her breakfast,but i was really too tired and the weather was too hot so i went into the lecture hall and didn't accompany her.i'm so sorry for that.

another week gone.Realise that i have not much time to spend in school anymore.Really gonna miss school life and Of course FRIENDS.hopefully we all will get to meet up during the attachment period.

gonna start on my ICA tml.really have to thanks ain for the info.You are definitely a superwoman.=).


this picture was taken some times back.you guys really brighten up my day.Though now we dun often hang out tog but ur are not forgotten.

for those who are not in the pic you are not forgotten as well, such as xinyi,sherlyn,shubin and lia.i'm sorry if i miss out any of ur name.i really gonna miss you guys.

came across this phrase and i think it's rather interesting. "Don't kiss me,i'm still in training."

this pic really describle my feeling now.but i know this feeling will be gone in no time.=)

how amazing when things change without you knowing and how you fall for someone without knowing why.these few days not too bad at least i'm not late for sch.things really happen when you least predicted it.

had been in rather bad mood recently.thanks qing ren for being there to listen to me when you urself not in a gd mood to.i'll alway be there for you.

skip lecture to have "lunch" with elaine.end up i only drink fruit juice as my breakfast haben digest yet. haha..

spot a new potential again today. it's a army guy.

this is specially to my darling(elaine)!

this is specially to my qing ren(xin yi)!

today went to casunria curry to have roti prata again.I have a very heavy breakfast.after that went to the reserviour for a walk.after that back home to do my hard copy and powerpoint slide for project.it not completed yet but the outline is there already.hopefully i can get it done nicely by next week.

left with 5 more weeks in school,which mean after the 5 weeks i won't get to see him anymore.really out of sight out of mind already.hopefully i can see you for the last 5 weeks.donno what i'm hoping for actually.haiz.

finally nursing project is over.really have to thanks ain for her hard work.if it wasn't her i dun think the presentation would be so successful.ytd after sch went to marina for steamboat with elaine,xinyi and shuhui. really had alot of fun.today went to bei sheng lou for dinner with my family to celebrate uncle's bday and i spot i new potential there.

when i manage to convince myself to stop falling for you, you appear in front of me again.you make my hard work go down into the drain and now i have to start all over again.but if i was given a choice i would still hope things is still the same.i wouldn't wanna change anything.

to elaine if i said or did anything that hurt/upset/make you angry, i'm really sorry. i didn't mean it.

to xin yi, thanks for being there for me when i really needed someone.

things wasn't as bad as i thought.manage to suppress my emotion today.even though i felt kinda empty when i didn't c him for 2 days but it also make me realise actually i wasn't so into him afterall.i believe the feeling will be gone soon.life still goes on.

hoping to see him but on the other hand hoping not to see him.why do people have all the luck whereas i dun have it.

think i should really go to the doc one day and check what's wrong with me.

well wad a "expression" i have got in 2 pic.was taken on a day when i'm very sick.

i called my driving instructor by his name so loudly in the public.Kavitha thought it was my frenz.she was so shock when she knew it was my instructor.haha..

kind of depress today.just dunno why. but i have a compensating theory.despite not see-ing him i saw someone that brighten up my day.it applies to my fri last week and today.=)

after struggling i decided mayb i should just stop myself and not let things gt worse.

爱与被爱，你会选择那个? 幸福和痛苦只是一线之差!

which is true? 'out of sight, out of mind' or 'distant make the heart grow fonder'.i wish out of sight out of mind applies to me but proven other wise. decided not to push myself to the edge. 顺其自然。anyway i'm left with 2 more month in school.

would you be there to love me?
would you be there to take my breath away?
would you be there for me?
would you stand by me?
would you say u love me?
would you run with me and nv look back?
would you say things that are alway true?
would you say that you will alway be the one?
would you hold me tight?
would you ever notice me?
would you just care for me a little more?
would you hold my hand?

today weren't as good as i thought it would be.Firstly too tired to wake up but still i drag myself out of bed.secondly heard from jane that our art instructor passed away ytd,i'm so shocked by the news.Though she was very strict with us but we knew that it's for our own good.so despite how many time she rejected our hardwork we would have it amended.from this i really really learnt that life is very unpredictable.thirdly going for lab these days really make me think of my great-grandma who just pass away 3 months plus ago.the moment i see the mechanical ventilator,ETT tubes and all the stuff we learnt in our clinical reminds me of her struggling in ICU.i really miss her, how i wish i could turn back time when she is still alive and treasure her more than before.and of course lastly i didn't see someone that i'm so use to seeing and i took it for granted.

looking out for you has already become a habit of mine.i realise you are no longer only bonus to me but something more than that.mayb i should just stop here and not go any further.i think i have reach my limit i couldn't take it anymore.my mind tells me so while my heart tells me otherwise.What am i suppose to do? LOST! so near yet so far.

Oh yeah i nearly forgot that i skip 1 hour of lecture just to eat cheese prata.haha.i thought it's nice but most of my frenz commented that it's too salty.but have you ever eat a sweet cheese prata before? i think i have got prob with my gastric and intestine.have been haveing gastric pain,feeling nausea and even vomitted.i have gt no choice but take zantac and maxalon before going sch these 2 days.i'm glad that my cough is getting better too.

first week of sch reopen "fly by" just like tt.for some reason i dun wish the days pass so fast.actually got nth much to blog about too.just that i have a very weird feeling but i just dunno how to put it in words.anyway hope that everything goes smoothly for me and miracle happens to me.=)

really have no time to blog or mayb i should just say i'm too lazy to blog.Actually i have gt plenty of thing to blog for the past one week but now i forgot what i wanna blog about.last week went out with my aunt for dim sum lunch and den swensens ice cream and lastly to k box.other than tt went out with my other aunt to bring my cousin to sch, and that is the time i realise that my map reading isn't tt bad.





well as for this week went for a wedding dinner(my aunt's) that is vegetarian and i swear i'm nv gona go to any vegetarian wedding again.well as for ytd went to my grandaunt hse for dinner.yummy! ate crab and durian.my favourite.



actually nt being able to see u is nt as bad as i thought.i almost dun rmb me having the habit of looking out for you.or mayb because my 2 week hol is so fun tt i could only be bothered with wad i'm doing at tt very moment.proven family is the best way to mend my broken heart.I believe that thing will be better and even if i'm back to sch. it will be a bonus for being able to see u and even w/o seeing u, my life will still goed on and i will still be happy.

my cousin's toys

Starting of my hols already,which mean i don't have to go sch for 2 weeks except for project meeting.went for project meeting today,everyone is very slack and for me,i'm very stone.i'm tired till i dun mind dropping on the floor and slp.after which went for my driving. on my way to yck station i saw someone that somehow brighten up my day just by a little bit,he looks gd today.But how i wish the one i saw was someone else(his friend).But sadly to say today i've gt no luck.Got to know they are on hols too.

Driving was fine today just that my mind was blank when i drive today so my reaction time was longer than normal.other than tt it was fine.

i'm sorry elaine i know i promise to go shopping with you but have got to cancel it.As you know my family is alway priority.BUT you come RIGHT AFTER THEM(my part time family).realise that i've been depending on her very much.She is almost my everything beside my family.=)

Realise i've been getting myself into a difficult situation.How can i stop myself? i don't wan to get myself into another mess.

Since i dunno your name can i call you mine?

Had been rather moody and tired this few days.which lead to having the can't be bother mood,so i'm very sorry to my darling(elaine).Knowing that u ain't in a very good mood and yet i didn't cheer you up.I'm really sorry didn't have the mood to cheer you up too.But i promise if you ever need me i will be there for you.i'm gonna miss you for the 2 weeks.

hoepfully with this 2 weeks break i can stop all my nonsence, cause i know if i dont't i'll get hurt eventually.it has become a habit looking out for him.And now despite you are not the one i'm looking for i'd still spot you first before him.i realise that i'm getting deeper into it and even deeper this time.it has become a habit to hoping to see you every morning too.but i know it's just all my wishful thinking.

My goal now beside being able to pass my nursing course ,i hope that i can face the reality and stop dreaming. No more fairytale for me.

well tml will mark the last day of school as we have a 2 weeks break.i totally dun look forward to holidays.i wanna be in sch.Firstly i'll miss my dearest DARLING and that someone.haha...

went for onco lecture where the lecturer say that girl tends to be emotional due to the hormonal change,start the day happily and end the day the other way.i totally agree with it.just like this morning i start off my day rather well and became moody in the noon time and i ended my day HAPPILY.=)

today did presentation for 3034 community health nursing,congrats subgroup 3 it's finally over and i think we have done rather well.BIG THANK YOU to AIN the part time superwoman.

These few day me and my sister had been sleeping in my parent's room, because our air-com is nt working.ytd went to HSA to donate blood.complete donating 500ml of blood in 4 mins 21 secs.whereas DARLING got rejected due to the low Hb.went out with her today again for dinner.Felt very tired and moody today.Someone from my class say that i look very happy recently and is smiling from within heart and ask if i've got a boyfriend already? i couldn't help but laugh. Firstly i'm alway this happy, secondly i have got NO boyfriend.

Now i can say that i'm finally over that period i can face it bravely, and no longer feels disappointed or sad.Hopefully i don't get myself into this kind of situation soon again. i won't be able to handle it.

i think my trachea now is rather SAFE won't be crush that easily huh my dear? realise i like ppl that have potential being a kopitiam uncle.haha...

"True friendship comes when silence between two people is comfortable" i'm glad that i found it, and she is the kind that i can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation i ever had. IF one day she is to left me i believe my life will mess up.

susposingly today is a happy day.It's my mum birthday and cousins' birthday party too,but sadly to say something happen that upset my mother,father,sister and myself. i know everyone of us didn't want it to happen and neither did we blame each other.We all blame ourselves for it.Hopefully everything will be fine in no time.

went to my cousin's house for the party,the food was nice and it was fun.But i know deep down we didn''t forget the incident that happen.

why you were the first one that i think of when everything happened?Today was really a bad day and how i wish u where there for me.I'm really lost in what to do today in every single thing.

"You must be a good runner because you are always running in my mind, you must be a good thief because you have stolen my heart, and i am always a bad shooter because I Miss You Always..."

if i were given a chance to choose all over again, i would still choose to fall for you then.even though the process of getting over you is hard and i'm still in the process but falling for you is a process that i appreciate.i though i would be able to face it bravely today but seems like i still need more time to get myself out of this mess.

i'm actually feeling much much better this 2 days. even though i didn't tell him about anything but he nv fail to make me smile and help me.talking to him can make me forget everything.thanks without you i think i'll be in a mess for sch.all this event make me realise without HIM i can survive but without family i would die.FAMILY is my EVERYTHING.i must say i have gt the BEST family in the world.

Thanks elaine for being there for me today and Thanks Corrine for that assuring hug. I "LOVE" you both.(i'm straight) haha.!

"Love is a game that two can play and both win" i agree with it but love's also a game that 2 or more can play and all lose.

went out to buy things for my cousins as they bday is approaching.Got them piggy bank and i like it alot.Wanna get one too but my parent say cannot.=(

realise that my ICA presentation on management is next thur and yet we haben come to any conclusion yet.hopefully we will be well prepare on thur.

Got to know that we need to buy lecture notes AGAIN.The sch tot we are printing money man.why there is so many lecture notes to buy.

tml mark the end of my week 7.one more week to hols.which also mean that it is getting nearing to my PRCP date.i dunno why i'm not looking forward to it.i dun wanna grad so soon.how nice if time can pause.

IF there is IF in everything,how nice would it be.If i know that will happen i would nv get myself in that kind of situation.If time can stop.If i study harder during my O level i can choose something that i really like. so much if but it's nv gonna happen in real life.

well this week is gonna be a short week.just need to go sch for lesson for just 3 days.But on addition i went back sch on monday for my ICA meeting and driving.i'm glad that i've gt a nice instructor that day.


sister is back from camp.Miss her alot.though she dun really interact at home but without her home, the house is so quiet.everything just don't seems right.


"Love is like a bus, if you miss it, don't worry, you'll catch another one." will i ever catch my another one when i miss it? didn't see him this few days expect that one time when i saw him from a distance and when he turn over to see i realise that afterall i'm nt tt hurt.i was really bother by it but after the weekend(for me to heal/deceive myself)when i face him again it didn't feel that bad anymore.i didn't want to face it i just wanna hide from the fact for the time being. i'll face it bravely when i'm ready to.give me some more time.



"Love is like playing the piano. First you must learn to play by the rules, then you must forget the rules and play from your heart. "

well i had busy or should i say well plan day ytd.Woke up at 9 and went out at 10 for breakfast(roti prata) somewhere. i don't know the place name as my uncle drove me there. I should said it was marvellous,especially for the cheese prata. Then we went to potong pasir to buy medication for my grandpa and back home to "deliver" the medication.Change to a better outfit for orchard.Went to centerpoint first to buy daddy present. follow by hanging round there and i brought myself an addidas cap. Brought dinner home for the whole family of 14. reach home and grandma told us that one of my auntie coming to give us her wedding invitation which is on 18 june. After that everyone start to come in.celebrate daddy birthday.Such a good occasion of course there would be red wine. i tried to get myself drunk for ytd so i can forget everything for that few hours. i can forget what i saw but i couldn't i was awake despite cup after cup.well as for today i'm trying my very best to keep myself busy so as to keep my mind occupied.

it really did bother me alot.why did i get myself into this kind of situation. i wish i could lie to myself but i rather face the fact.how contradicting i'm.hopefully when i get back to sch tml i'm nt reminded about it.


"How can the sun not to shine, when clouds exist. How can leaves not to fall when wind exists. How can i not to fall in love when you exist."