Had been rather moody and tired this few days.which lead to having the can't be bother mood,so i'm very sorry to my darling(elaine).Knowing that u ain't in a very good mood and yet i didn't cheer you up.I'm really sorry didn't have the mood to cheer you up too.But i promise if you ever need me i will be there for you.i'm gonna miss you for the 2 weeks.

hoepfully with this 2 weeks break i can stop all my nonsence, cause i know if i dont't i'll get hurt eventually.it has become a habit looking out for him.And now despite you are not the one i'm looking for i'd still spot you first before him.i realise that i'm getting deeper into it and even deeper this time.it has become a habit to hoping to see you every morning too.but i know it's just all my wishful thinking.

My goal now beside being able to pass my nursing course ,i hope that i can face the reality and stop dreaming. No more fairytale for me.