today weren't as good as i thought it would be.Firstly too tired to wake up but still i drag myself out of bed.secondly heard from jane that our art instructor passed away ytd,i'm so shocked by the news.Though she was very strict with us but we knew that it's for our own good.so despite how many time she rejected our hardwork we would have it amended.from this i really really learnt that life is very unpredictable.thirdly going for lab these days really make me think of my great-grandma who just pass away 3 months plus ago.the moment i see the mechanical ventilator,ETT tubes and all the stuff we learnt in our clinical reminds me of her struggling in ICU.i really miss her, how i wish i could turn back time when she is still alive and treasure her more than before.and of course lastly i didn't see someone that i'm so use to seeing and i took it for granted.

looking out for you has already become a habit of mine.i realise you are no longer only bonus to me but something more than that.mayb i should just stop here and not go any further.i think i have reach my limit i couldn't take it anymore.my mind tells me so while my heart tells me otherwise.What am i suppose to do? LOST! so near yet so far.

Oh yeah i nearly forgot that i skip 1 hour of lecture just to eat cheese prata.haha.i thought it's nice but most of my frenz commented that it's too salty.but have you ever eat a sweet cheese prata before? i think i have got prob with my gastric and intestine.have been haveing gastric pain,feeling nausea and even vomitted.i have gt no choice but take zantac and maxalon before going sch these 2 days.i'm glad that my cough is getting better too.

first week of sch reopen "fly by" just like tt.for some reason i dun wish the days pass so fast.actually got nth much to blog about too.just that i have a very weird feeling but i just dunno how to put it in words.anyway hope that everything goes smoothly for me and miracle happens to me.=)

really have no time to blog or mayb i should just say i'm too lazy to blog.Actually i have gt plenty of thing to blog for the past one week but now i forgot what i wanna blog about.last week went out with my aunt for dim sum lunch and den swensens ice cream and lastly to k box.other than tt went out with my other aunt to bring my cousin to sch, and that is the time i realise that my map reading isn't tt bad.





well as for this week went for a wedding dinner(my aunt's) that is vegetarian and i swear i'm nv gona go to any vegetarian wedding again.well as for ytd went to my grandaunt hse for dinner.yummy! ate crab and durian.my favourite.



actually nt being able to see u is nt as bad as i thought.i almost dun rmb me having the habit of looking out for you.or mayb because my 2 week hol is so fun tt i could only be bothered with wad i'm doing at tt very moment.proven family is the best way to mend my broken heart.I believe that thing will be better and even if i'm back to sch. it will be a bonus for being able to see u and even w/o seeing u, my life will still goed on and i will still be happy.

my cousin's toys

Starting of my hols already,which mean i don't have to go sch for 2 weeks except for project meeting.went for project meeting today,everyone is very slack and for me,i'm very stone.i'm tired till i dun mind dropping on the floor and slp.after which went for my driving. on my way to yck station i saw someone that somehow brighten up my day just by a little bit,he looks gd today.But how i wish the one i saw was someone else(his friend).But sadly to say today i've gt no luck.Got to know they are on hols too.

Driving was fine today just that my mind was blank when i drive today so my reaction time was longer than normal.other than tt it was fine.

i'm sorry elaine i know i promise to go shopping with you but have got to cancel it.As you know my family is alway priority.BUT you come RIGHT AFTER THEM(my part time family).realise that i've been depending on her very much.She is almost my everything beside my family.=)

Realise i've been getting myself into a difficult situation.How can i stop myself? i don't wan to get myself into another mess.

Since i dunno your name can i call you mine?

Had been rather moody and tired this few days.which lead to having the can't be bother mood,so i'm very sorry to my darling(elaine).Knowing that u ain't in a very good mood and yet i didn't cheer you up.I'm really sorry didn't have the mood to cheer you up too.But i promise if you ever need me i will be there for you.i'm gonna miss you for the 2 weeks.

hoepfully with this 2 weeks break i can stop all my nonsence, cause i know if i dont't i'll get hurt eventually.it has become a habit looking out for him.And now despite you are not the one i'm looking for i'd still spot you first before him.i realise that i'm getting deeper into it and even deeper this time.it has become a habit to hoping to see you every morning too.but i know it's just all my wishful thinking.

My goal now beside being able to pass my nursing course ,i hope that i can face the reality and stop dreaming. No more fairytale for me.

well tml will mark the last day of school as we have a 2 weeks break.i totally dun look forward to holidays.i wanna be in sch.Firstly i'll miss my dearest DARLING and that someone.haha...

went for onco lecture where the lecturer say that girl tends to be emotional due to the hormonal change,start the day happily and end the day the other way.i totally agree with it.just like this morning i start off my day rather well and became moody in the noon time and i ended my day HAPPILY.=)

today did presentation for 3034 community health nursing,congrats subgroup 3 it's finally over and i think we have done rather well.BIG THANK YOU to AIN the part time superwoman.

These few day me and my sister had been sleeping in my parent's room, because our air-com is nt working.ytd went to HSA to donate blood.complete donating 500ml of blood in 4 mins 21 secs.whereas DARLING got rejected due to the low Hb.went out with her today again for dinner.Felt very tired and moody today.Someone from my class say that i look very happy recently and is smiling from within heart and ask if i've got a boyfriend already? i couldn't help but laugh. Firstly i'm alway this happy, secondly i have got NO boyfriend.

Now i can say that i'm finally over that period i can face it bravely, and no longer feels disappointed or sad.Hopefully i don't get myself into this kind of situation soon again. i won't be able to handle it.

i think my trachea now is rather SAFE won't be crush that easily huh my dear? realise i like ppl that have potential being a kopitiam uncle.haha...

"True friendship comes when silence between two people is comfortable" i'm glad that i found it, and she is the kind that i can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation i ever had. IF one day she is to left me i believe my life will mess up.

susposingly today is a happy day.It's my mum birthday and cousins' birthday party too,but sadly to say something happen that upset my mother,father,sister and myself. i know everyone of us didn't want it to happen and neither did we blame each other.We all blame ourselves for it.Hopefully everything will be fine in no time.

went to my cousin's house for the party,the food was nice and it was fun.But i know deep down we didn''t forget the incident that happen.

why you were the first one that i think of when everything happened?Today was really a bad day and how i wish u where there for me.I'm really lost in what to do today in every single thing.

"You must be a good runner because you are always running in my mind, you must be a good thief because you have stolen my heart, and i am always a bad shooter because I Miss You Always..."

if i were given a chance to choose all over again, i would still choose to fall for you then.even though the process of getting over you is hard and i'm still in the process but falling for you is a process that i appreciate.i though i would be able to face it bravely today but seems like i still need more time to get myself out of this mess.

i'm actually feeling much much better this 2 days. even though i didn't tell him about anything but he nv fail to make me smile and help me.talking to him can make me forget everything.thanks without you i think i'll be in a mess for sch.all this event make me realise without HIM i can survive but without family i would die.FAMILY is my EVERYTHING.i must say i have gt the BEST family in the world.

Thanks elaine for being there for me today and Thanks Corrine for that assuring hug. I "LOVE" you both.(i'm straight) haha.!